Updates Around Here!

Ack I really am going to try and blog weekly. A couple of notes Fitness- I am TRYYYYYING to eat better. I walking a TON at work- about 50 minutes a day since they put in a treadmill! I am also trying to go to the gym at least 5x a week doing more cardio and a bit of weights. My GOAL is to lose about 10 lbs. BUT, i honestly need to eat better. I lack discipline in that area cuz i love to eat what i want to! I loooove to snack too. But slowly I am trying to learn how to cook better, make substitutions, control portions, not eat a ton of carbs, and eat more fruits/veggies. Being a Wife- Honestly i love and hate it. I 80% enjoy being a wife. I LOOOOVE serving Jose in all aspects of marriage- laughing, cooking, cleaning, cuddling, reading, praying, memory making, forgiving, encouraging, listening, etc. I hate the 20% of me who is controlling, impatient, selfish, and frustrated. This 20% wages war HARD on my heart who yearns to be gentle, kind, and loving. Sometimes this 20% wins and comes out far more than I'd like. I want things said in a certain tone, done at a certain time, me to be engaged and spent time with, and helped out in various ways. But of course, those things are all about ME. How I am so wrapped up about ME sometimes to the point where it drives me to be frustrated at my husband saddens me. I cant make marriage about works and things he does for me and doesn't do for me. It will never work. There is so much room to grow, but thank God for the Holy Spirit to convict and be a helper to see these things. Thank God for Jesus for redeeming me when I was dead in my sin. Thank God for grace. Life- it never stops. Sometimes I do crave and want quiet time, but sometimes I get bored or I feel I am not doing much. I keep seeing people (which I LOVE!!!!), working 10 hrs a day, going to the gym, coloring my colorbook (ill show you all pictures later!!!- its been sooooo therapeutic), watching flash & arrow on netflix, listening to podcasts about gilmore girls & monk, and reading a couple of books (harry potter, the king and his beauty, and prayer) How do I tell the difference between me being a lazy bum and being too busy?! what is the difference?! An idea- If we ever own a house, Lord willing, we will have a backyard where we can invite our neighbors, friends, and family over for dinner ALL. THE. TIME. In the meantime, I want to plan little gatherings and get togethers at someone else's home (haha) to meet others, get to know them, and share life. I think its so amazing to learn about different cultures, beliefs, thoughts and gather around a dinner table to snack, craft, eat, drink, and make things! Totally hinting this idea towards Ruby right now, OR maybe Sarah, to do this on a regular basis. This generation I feel its hard to be open with our lives and want to know other strangers. But I just think it would be awesome!!!! Financially- We paid off Jose's car!!! WOOOOHOOOOO! The next goal for us this year is to get out of school debt. We have $3500 more, and we are hoping to get rid of it by the end of 2016! :D THE GREAT NEWS is that my husband is graduating in 2 months and I am so so so so so so excited and proud. Its all worth it. Anyways, I am off to bed. Hope to blog again soon. <3