An Update of this Month

These last couple of weeks have been filled with trials. Engagement season is tough. Everything is heightened. Im literally breaking out because of me being anxious or worrying. My emotions, my actions, and my sin.... I've relied on myself, my control, and my works.

Some specific struggles are as follows.... Everyone's opinions (mainly my family- learning how to transition out of my family's home into being one with jose) and how to balance the roll of being a daughter, sister, and soon to be wife....not having a local church family and having that accountability and reminder of the gospel, and just trying to obey God in plugging into a church that is challenging me like crazy. some days at work is tough because of not meshing well with every one...lots of draining arguments with Jose which reveals my selfishness, pride, wanting control, and lack of joy in Christ alone... Wedding planning itself is the least of all my issues, but yet it's still another 100 decisions I need to make... I see my deep sin coming out as of late and it's consequences take away glory from The Lord. 

Its been really helpful to tell people these issues so I dont have to save my face and act like everythings all good. I suck. I am drained and on edge. Its so nice to get encouragement, wisdom, and help. I am thankful.

When I am weak, You are strong, God. Help me glorify You.

A sweet lady gave me this bookmark my first day at Bellflower :)